Trust in the Lord

Life is good.  Trust God. Keep your faith. Never lose hope.  Jesus is always here for you.  God doesn't abandon us.  We abandon God.  If you turn from sin, repent, and live for God, He will bless you with peace, love, and happiness.  Hold tight to God and know what is impossible for human beings is possible for God.  This is true.  God bless and be well.

Blue Soul

As a youth, laying in bed, I always prayed

‘Lord, have mercy,’ thinking, why did You have to curse me?

Why me?  Was it really necessary?

Not She!

The one that was always there for me, took care of me,

Truly loved me for me

Dammit!  I would give my life for thee

Take it away and give it to me

While rivers of sadness flows through my eyes

I didn’t realize it was a blessing in disguise

That I could not see

He already planned out my “destiny”

The crossroads He chose for me

Is it going to be Hell or Blessed Eternity

All I can do is wait and see

In the mean time, I’m stuck in correction of facilities

Praying “Jesus, forgive me”

By the way Nurturing Begetter, I’m sorry

Never in your wildest dreams, not for one second had you 

Thought that this would happen to me

After all the struggling, suffering, and fighting you did for me

Not to mention all the positive and good examples that you set for me

I can’t believe I let the ‘evils’ get the best of me

But when I get out, I’ll be the man I was meant to be

Damn!  How much it hurt me to see you in agony

And to realize that this test was meant for me

I’m sorry you went through the pain and not me

So when the Son of Man’s light shines from the sky

And He walks the Earth to bless His children

We will be blessed

100 billion fold more times than gold

Mom, thank you for being my mom 

I could never imagine anyone in your place

And wouldn’t have it any other way

You are the nucleus of my soul

That is why my heart shines like pure gold

Dennis Thomas

1/98

Billy Joel - Lullabye (Goodnight, My Angel)

Billy Joel - Lullabye (Goodnight, My Angel)

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Separation from the wicked

Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a net thrown into the sea, which collects fish of every kind. When it is full they haul it ashore and sit down to put what is good into buckets. What is bad they throw away. Thus it will be at the end of the age. The angels will go out and separate the wicked from the righteous...

Matthew 13: 47-50

Will Smith - 60 Minutes(2)

Decent guy or what?

Militant Minded

This man is serious, do you know who this is?

Better Dayz

Lookin for these better days

Better days, heyyy! Better days

Got me thinkin bout better days

Better days! Better days, better days

Heyyy! Better days

Got me thinkin bout better days

Time to question our lifestyle, look how we live

Smokin weed like it ain't no thang, so even kids

wanna try now, they lie down and get ran through

Nobody watch 'em clockin the evil man do

Faced with the demons, addicted to hearin victims screamin

Guess we was evil since birth, product of cursed semens

Cause even our birthdays is cursed days

A born thug in the first place, the worst ways

I'd love to see the block in peace

With no more dealers and crooked cops, the only way to stop the beast

And only we can change

It's up to us to clean up the streets, it ain't the same

Too many murders, too many funerals and too many tears

Just seen another brother buried plus I knew him for years

Passed by his family, but what could I say?

Keep yo' head up and try to keep the faith

And pray for better days

Better days, better days, heyyy!

Better days.. got me thinkin bout better days

Better days, better days, better days

Heyyy! Better days

Got me thinkin bout better days

Thinkin back as an adolescent, who would've guessed

that in my future years, I'd be stressin

Some say the ghetto's sick and corrupt

Plus my P.O. won't let me hang with the brothers I grew up with

Tryin to keep my head up and stay strong

All my homies slangin llello all day long, but they wrong

So I'm solo and so broke

Savin up for some Jordan's, cause they dope

I got a girl and I love her but she broke too, and so am I

I can't take her to the place she wanna go to

So we argue and play fight, all day and night

Makin passionate love 'til the daylight

Plus we about to get evicted, can't pay the rent

Guess it's time to see who really is yo' friend

Tell me you pregnant and I'm amazed

So many blessings while we stressin

Lookin for them better days

For better days, better days, better days, heyyy!

Better days.. got me thinkin bout better days

Better days, better days, better days

Heyyy! Better days.. got me thinkin bout better days

Now me and you was real cool, hell on them square fools

Since back in high school, we was true, me and you

Hardly parted or seperated, we stayed faded

Affiliated with gangbangers and still made it

Up in the gym, mess with me, gotta mess with him

Still dressin like grown men when rollin

I went to dark, smokin Newports, gamin marks

Got a place in my heart, homey stay smart

Locked you up in the pen, and gave you three to ten

I send you letters with naked flicks of old friends

Hopin you well, I know it's hell

Doin time in the cells, you need mail, when you in jail

And me I'm doin cool

I settled down, had a family, workin in night school

Every once in a while, I reminisce

And wonder how we ever came to this

I miss the better days

Better days, better days, heyyy!

Better days.. I'm thinkin bout better days

Better days, better days, better days

Heyyy! Better days.. got me thinkin bout better days

I send this one out, to all the homeboys down in uh, Clinton lockdown

Rikers Island, all them dudes I was uh locked up with, hehe

E Block, F Block, lower H

N-I-C in Rikers Island, downstate

All the peoples I met along the way

Better days is comin homeboy, keep your head up

Better days, better days, better days

Heyyy! Better days.. uhh, lookin for the better days

Better days, better days, lookin for the better days

Heyyy! Hahaha..

Poet undisclosed at this time.

Those who know, know.

Marinate on that!

Losers and Winners

Losers quit when they fail. Winners fail until they succeed.

First Maccabee's

“It is easy for many to be overcome by a few; in the sight of Heaven there is no difference between deliverance by many or by few; for victory in war does not depend upon the size of the army, but on strength that comes from Heaven.”

Music's equation

Mathematics is the key to the universe.

Music = Mathematics

Wisdom from Above

“Are any of you wise or sensible? Then show it by living right and by being humble and wise in everything you do. But if your heart is full of bitter jealousy and selfishness, don’t brag or lie to cover up the truth. That kind of wisdom doesn’t come from above. It is earthly and selfish and comes from the devil himself. Whenever people are jealous or selfish, they cause trouble and do all sorts of cruel things. But the wisdom that comes from above leads us to be pure, friendly, gentle, sensible, kind, helpful, genuine, and sincere. When peacemakers plant seeds of peace, they will harvest justice.”

James 3: 13-18

I thank God every day for the spiritual nourishment that He provides through the Holy Bible. He is my breath of fresh air. It seems that whatever is bothering me at any given time and I open up my Bible the passage that I open to usually pertains to my problem. We as a society are coming up on some serious times and only faith in God will give us the strength we need to endure and make it through. The passage above is very uplifting to me and gives me reassurance that being humble and putting God’s work first is the path I need to stay on.

Slippin'

Don't let this video fall on deaf ears! This is one of my favorite songs of all-time. DMX captures oppression, depression, and struggle better than most. I can relate, in many ways I can feel his pain. DMX, I must say, is a misunderstood man beyond most people's comprehension. How can we as a society judge men like DMX and cast stones without even knowing or understanding what he is about? Under the video are the lyrics to this song. Please, follow along and try to understand what is being said here. Not only that, but how would you feel if your father left you at age seven, your mother didn't care about you enough to take care of you, and bouncing from group home to group home was your childhood routine? When nobody cares about you you feel hopeless and alone. He is a human being that was treated like a beast, left unattended, and to fend for himself as a child. What type of man do you think he will grow up to be? Maybe, he didn't make the right choices growing up, but who was there to correct him or help him along the way. In this video, I see hope and conviction. I see a man who knows right from wrong, chose wrong to fend for himself, and now wants change to be there for his own children and to help others.

Ha ha ha ha ha ha uhh

See to live is to suffer but to survive

well that's to find meaning in the suffering.

[Chorus]

Ay yo I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I can't get up

Ay yo I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I can't get up

Ay yo I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I gots to get up

Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up!

[Repeat]

[1]

I been through mad different phases like Masons

to find my way & now I know that happy days are not far away

If I'm strong enough I'll live long enough to see my kids

doing something more constructive with they time

than bids I know because I been there

now I'm in there sit back & look

at what it took for me to get there

First came the bullshit the drama with my mama

she got on the fly shit until i split

and said that I'ma be that seed

that doesn't need much to succeed

strapped with mad greed and a heart that doesn't bleed

I'm ready for the world or at least I thought I was

baggin' niggas when I caught a buzz

for thinking about how short I was

Going too fast it wouldn't last but yo I couldn't tell

group homes & institutions, prepare my ass for jail

They put me in a situation forcin' me to be a man

when I was just learnin' to stand without a helpin' hand

Damn, was it my fault, somethin' I did

to make a father leave his first kid at 7 doin' my first bid?

Back on the scene at 14 with a scheme

to get more cream than I'd ever seen in a dream

and by all means I will be living high off the hog

and I never gave a fuck about much but my dog

That's my only motherfucka I had offered my last

Just another little nigga headed nowhere fast

[Chorus]

[2]

That ain't the half shit get's worse as I get older

actions become bolder heart got colder

chip on my shoulder that I dared a nigga to touch

didn't need a click cause I scared a nigga that much

One deep went to for kicks

catchin' vicks throwin' bricks gettin by bein' slick

used to get high to get by used to have to puff my L

in the morning before I get fly

I ate something a couple of forties made me hate somethin'

I did some coke now I'm ready to take something

3 years later showing signs of stress

didn't keep my hair cut or give a fuck how I dressed

I'm possessed by the darker side livin' the cruddy life

Shit like this kept a nigga with a bloody knife

wanna make records but I'm fucking it up

I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I can't get up

[Chorus]

[3]

Wasn't long before I hit rock bottom

Niggas talking shit like damn look how that rock got him

Open like a window no more Indo look at a video

sayin' to myself that could've been yo on the TV

believe me it could be done somethin's got to give

it's got to change cause I've got a son

I've got to do the right thing for shorty

and that means no more getting high drinking forties

So I get back lookin' type slick again

Fake niggas jump back on my dick again

Nothin' but love for those that know how it feel

& much respect to all my niggas that kept it real

Kept a nigga strong kept a nigga from doin wrong

Niggas know who they is and this is yo fuckin' song

and to my boo who stuck with a nigga through

all the bullshit you'll get yours because it's due

[Chorus]

can't get up...I gots to get up

This is from the heart baby, don't get it twisted

Ahh X RATED!!!!!

Letter to Leaders

“I’ve commanded you to be strong and brave. Don’t ever be afraid or discouraged! I am the Lord your God, and I will be there to help you wherever you go.”

Joshua 1:9



This scripture was from the beginning of the Book of Joshua. Moses had just passed on and Israel was without leadership. God spoke to Joshua and told him to not be afraid and to lead his nation. So many men I come across today that “want” to be leaders and have the most exalted seats of power, yet with all the wrong intentions, fail miserably. When leading God’s people there is no room for ego, exaltation, and/or pride. God is the one to be exalted. God is the one to be praised and honored. Not man. Any man who does not put God first and his works will never see a day of true happiness or have the respect of the men he’s trying to lead. Joshua had love and respect for God and God knew that. Joshua’s intentions were only for him to be used as an instrument of God and that is why Joshua led his people in victory of the Promised Land.

In this land of “milk and honey” we too can have our share of true happiness and God’s blessing as long as our fraternal, spiritual, and religious leaders in Christ show us the right way through their example and pure heart.

Carl Thomas-Summer Rain

I love music like this. Carl Thomas has a great voice and this video is one of the most romantic videos in recent years.

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Faces

I’m a son to my mother
A father to my daughter
A child to my God
A follower to my Lord
A leader to his followers
I am a creation that creates
A gift that gives
A soul that soars through the wind
I am but one man
That has many faces
Trials and tribulations
Of the everyday
Led to the fantasies
Of false realities
Now, I am given the sight to see
What is in store for me
Reality is, He will lead me
My spirit explores the word of He
So that I may spread the Eternal Entity that Be
To the hearts that can not see
To spin agony into harmony
To turn saddened souls back to G O D
Let us bond in faith
And look upon the face of the one that is of grace

D. Thomas
2/20/01

History Repeats

"The Lord must be furious with me and everyone else in Israel and Judah, because our ancestors did not obey the laws written in this book. Go find out what the Lord wants us to do."

2 Chronicles 34: 21

Third Eye

I disect
The dialect
Communication
Keeps the nation
In hallucination

Bloodlines monopolize
While another set of blood ties
Are on the uprise
Generations
Are hypnotized

They both devils in disguise
Think I don’t read between the lines?
They think I don’t see the lies
They act like friends
Really are foes
Talk behind my back
Think I don’t know

But I’m coming back
Like Return of the Jedi
A Knight of Christ
Wise, with a third eye
Strength and might, that of a samurai
Jesus trains me as a magi

Knights, rise up!

D. Thomas
2/11/07

Family Portrait

My seven year old daughter drew this at school the day before my son was born. Now, the thing is, we didn't know if we were having a boy or girl. Isabella, my seven year old, somehow knew it was going to be a boy. This picture is of Isabella holding her new born baby brother, Juney, and her little sister Catherine. It's moments like this that make life beautiful. She's not a bad artist either, I might add. I couldn't draw this good at seven years old.

Life is Good!

She Cries

Confused are her ways
Touch is all she needs
Love is all she desires
Alone she is
Her mind on fire
Torment set in
She sits and talks with herself
For no one else listens
Her soul is screaming
Pleading to be heard
But the voice of, blows in the wind
Falls on deaf ears
All she wants is love
Someone to care for her
Where is my knight
She asks
But shining armor turns to rust
As years pass
Her voice fades
Her soul cries

D. Thomas
2/2/07

Reading from Jeremiah

A reading from the Book of the Prophet Jeremiah

The word of the Lord came to me, saying:
Before I formed you in the womb
I knew you,
before you were born I dedicated you,
a prophet to the nations
I appointed you.
But do you gird your loins;
stand up and tell them
all that I command you.
Be not crushed on their account,
as though I would leave you crushed
before them;
for it is I this day
who have made you a fortified city,
a pillar of iron, a wall of brass,
against the whole land:
against Judah’s kings and princes,
against its priests and people.
They will fight against you but not
prevail over you,
for I am with you to deliver you,
says the Lord.

The word of the Lord. Thanks be to God.


Powerful! God is good and He is with us. This passage was from Sunday’s mass service. These bold and encouraging words are needed today as they were over two thousand years ago. We face a new evil today that our ancestors faced then. However, if we keep God in our hearts and Jesus in our souls then we will be protected. We must rise up against the new threat of the beast.

Today, is a new day, we have adapted new ways. Our old ways have phased. Our new ways are similar to the black plague, in an emotional state. I’m physically and spiritually ready for revolution; and mentally and emotionally ready for evolution. The sixties was a time of peace and love, which was a great movement. However, it was only the majority of one race and minimal of another whom lived it. Uncle Sam wasn’t too thrilled either. So the hate mixed in collapsed the movement. Now, forty years later, the new movement is of hate, which all races tend to side with. Uncle Sam, in many ways, can’t control this level of power without claiming martial law. Mental and spiritual anarchy is on the rise. Too many fatherless children run the streets; too many single mothers feel the beat. The beast seems to have been released from his heat. Prison cell in hell is where he dwelled. The hate in the world gave him right to unify his army in the night. Time to sweep the street and recruit his peeps. Harvest time is near. The sickle is being sharpened and prepared. I understand that the time is at hand. The Son of Man will grace our land. White robes will be handed out. Get yours and know without doubt, that you have been blessed by God. For everyone else will be judged hard. The war of Him vs. he will go down as the battle of battles so let’s pray for mercy.

Prison Philosophy

Determination

Dedication

Dicipline

Conquer

That was my prison philosophy. Locked up at the age of 20, all I did was read, think, politic, and work out. Kept it simple. But kept it moving. Seems that 10 years later, once again oppression set in. This time in a different setting but same form of struggle. Therefore, I must bring it back to basics and keep it simple. Determination. Dedication. Dicipline. Conquer. Those bold, yet simple words kept me motivated and focused. Time to go back to work & see what I am made of.

Eating Without Washing Your Hands

Jesus then said:
“Don’t any of you know what I am talking about by now? Don’t you know that the food you put into your mouth goes into your stomach and then out of your body? But the words that come out of your mouth come from your heart. And they are what make you unfit to worship God. Out of your heart come evil thoughts, murder, unfaithfulness in marriage, vulgar deeds, stealing, telling lies, and insulting others. These are what make you unclean. Eating without washing your hands will not make you unfit to worship God.”

That passage is from Matthew 15: 16-20 (the entire story is v. 10-20). I sit and laugh to myself, for, I think of all the people I come across in life and how this pertains to each and everyone of us, myself included (I’m no angel and I know it). We all look at others and tell them what makes them unacceptable to God and why they don’t have the right to worship Him, then we turn around and insult people, do things that are not ethical in business, steal, and tell lies.

I mean some of us believe that white lies are harmless and not bad, but isn’t a “little white lie” still a lie. We should sit back and really analyze our position in life. If we claim to love God and worship God then shouldn’t we take into account that the small things in life like: not taking communion on a regular basis or not going to confession is small potatoes compared to the people that do make communion every week, but are shady in their business practices or lie and gossip about others.

How can we look at people straight in the face and be “nicey, nice” to them but once their back is turned we talk mean things of them and insult them, but yet we claim to worship God and that we are good. How can we claim to be “good” when the words that come out of our mouths are so bad, evil, malicious, and insulting?

So in essence, “Eating without washing your hands will not make you unfit to worship God,” but the bad words that come out of your mouth are what make you unclean and unfit. Let’s put an end to the gossip. Let’s put an end to the lying and stealing. Let’s cleanse our hearts and souls and think positive and feel good. Then the words that come out of our mouths will reflect our love for God.

UFO_over_O_Hare

If you listen to last few seconds of this video you will hear somebody in the back round saying "It would have landed, but..." I would have liked to hear what came after "but..." Wouldn't you?

Tales of a Chatroom

She walks into the room
Only seen with the mind
She elaborates on dreams
That only are in disguise
She asks for a favor
Or maybe a key
To the door of her soul
That is trapped inside thee
She knows nothing of guilt
But lies in her sleep
She takes a trip
Down that road in a heap
She runs out of gas
Only to awake
That only she rides in
A room that has been forsaked
By souls of torment
And tragedy and grief
They all have something in common
But at that sound, they shriek

D. Thomas
1/07

Boys & Girls Club, is it necessary?

My personal quote is, “What’s Your Purpose?” How I came to that I will explain in a few minutes (and give in greater detail in another entry). What I’m about to say will put me on the spot (challenge me more than anything). For about a year I have plotted the idea of a “Youth & Parent Development Center.”

Actually, I had the thought for about ten years to do something for the children, whether it be a recreation center or some sort of club and after the last year of really just “thinking” and not doing I came across the book by Denzel Washington: A Hand to Guide Me. That book helped me regain momentum and focus on why I wanted to start this center in the first place.

I didn’t have a Boys Club growing up. And now reflecting on that, I wish I did. I think a club of that nature would have helped me growing up and maybe even sway some of my bad decisions. But I didn’t have that, and I won’t cry over spilt milk. However, the situation remains the same. There are still no clubs in my area for the youth of today. Though, there are the streets. There are the drugs. The same activities I was exposed to as a teenager.

Are these the activities that we want our children of today to be exposed to? Why now, you may ask? Well, don’t you think it’s about time? The world today is in a serious state of hurt. Our children have (in my part of CT that is) really no place to go, but the streets to run off steam, at least with no cost. There are but a few role-models and fathers involved in the lives of our children. So, there is no guidance, no leadership, and no sense of self worth or motivation to do good.

I see all too often that the grandparents are raising the children with the mother. Where are the fathers? Where are the role models, the mentors? If you do exist please, come forward and let me know. I would like to shake your hand. Please, by no means am I here talking down on anyone. Everyone has their own story.

All too often I here, “Well, it’s not my problem.” Or, “That child is not mine, why should I raise it?” Then, who will? You may be right. It may not be your child, but doesn’t that child still deserve a man or mentor in his or her life to grow, to learn from. That child did not ask to be born, but it was born. So now what? What do we do? Just continue with our own lives and push that child to the side with no guidance or mentoring.

I know we all have our own problems, believe me, I have my share. But I can not stand here and let another child grow up the way I did. It’s not right; it’s not fair, to that child or society. Yes, I said “it’s not right to society.” Believe it or not, we are all affected by this common problem across the world (I’ll make this a topic of another entry), especially “society.”

So now what, where do we go from here? I am open to ideas. Feel free to contact me via e-mail (click on view my complete profile, then click e-mail where it says contact) or post a comment and let me know what you think may help or if you just want to comment. I believe one of the first steps is to stop pointing fingers and find solutions. We won’t find solutions if we are too busy pointing fingers and placing blame. A lot of times the fathers and mothers don’t get along for whatever reasons and hold grudges and the children are affected. Let’s stop this nonsense, we are only hurting the children (this will be another topic posted at another time, the children is what I want focused on for now). The boy scouts was really never my cup of tea. But we could use some sort of brotherhood like environment for the boys and girls to bond. I have a few ideas for children’s groups or clubs that I’m working on as we speak.

The center I spoke of earlier to me is the most important thing in my opinion for now to work on. I am in early stages of creating the center and would like all the support I can get. Not only is it going to be a recreation center but a development center too. As a proud parent myself, I understand that I don’t always have the answers so their will be something for the parents as well.

If any of you out there reading this is a single parent, a grandparent helping to raise a child, a father that understands, or a man or woman that would like to help. Anybody, please, send me your support in anyway possible; whether it is through funding, advice, direction, and/or encouragement. Like I said earlier, I welcome all.

For anybody out there that may feel that I am not “qualified” or that I shouldn’t be the one to do this. Who will then, you? If so, please do so, if you are better qualified I would be glad to get out of your way as long as it gets done and the children no longer are “without.”

I think at times we all wander through parts of our life and wonder what are we going to do or what direction to take. Sometimes we all need to sit back and reflect on what is important to us in life and how do we get there. “What’s Your Purpose?” Well, I ask everybody to ask themselves that question. I think I may have found mine.

Perseverance through Persecution

Father, you are just and merciful
Thank you for punishing my radical behavior
I need cleansing
My soul is tainted from the ways of the world
I seek your wisdom
For guidance and grace
Fallen I have every now and then
Please Father, I need you, pick me up again
Show me how to walk for you
I patiently wait your instruction
Whatever your will is for me, so be it
You know my needs though
And time is ticking
I know you will take care of me
You always have in my time of need
I have been humbled once again Father
Why do the people that claim to love you
And have faith in you persecute me
You gave me mercy, yet they judge me
Your Son says that I am forgiven
Why then do they not forgive
Much like the Pharisees and Sadducees
Of yesteryear
A new group of those old ways have re-appeared
They cloak themselves with your cloth
And act as if they are “holier than thou”
Like they can do no wrong
Greeting the “accomplished”
But looking down on the “others”
Am I just being bitter Lord
Or is the time at hand

D. Thomas
1/07

"A Hand To Guide Me" book review

“A Hand to Guide Me,” all I can say is, “where was this book ten years ago, better yet, fifteen years ago? This book is surely a treasure for those that are in need of role models and for those wanting to be role models (And my guess is, that’s pretty much everybody on this planet). Denzel’s story in my opinion was the most inspiring; however, there were many great inspiring lives that you can choose from in this book to debate that. I personally recommend this book to anybody that knows how to read. When my seven year old learns how to read better I will pass this book on to her.

There were a few people in here that didn’t really tell how a mentor was their guide in life and helped them to succeed, which at first I thought was dumb and one or two more that just seemed to me like they were just bitter and/or pointless. But as I thought about it more, I realized that maybe they were examples of how you might still succeed without mentoring but it just would take a lot more work on your behalf; or, that they were examples to really prove that every child growing up really does need positive influences in their life.

My favorite and most inspiring tales told in this book came from(other than from Denzel of course): Walter Anderson, John Antioco, Chick Big Crow, Gen. Wesley Clark, Phil Jackson, Donna Richardson Joyner, Patrick J. Kelly, Rev. Edward A. Malloy, Joe Morgan, Matthew F. Pottinger, Gen. Colin Powell, Ahmad Rashad, John Shuerholz, Bernard Shaw, George M. Steinbrenner III, & John Wooden.

Not all of those names are household names, but they are all successful and had something profound to say and/or a good story to tell. There were famous and well known people such as: Hank Aaron, Mohammed Ali, Debbie Allen, Yogi Berra, Johnny Damon, John Mellencamp, Leonard Nimoy, Swin Cash, and Bill Clinton, just to name a few. Everyone who reads this book will have a different perspective on some of these stories but in the end I believe that we will all share the same belief that this book is a Godsend.

I challenge everyone to pick this book up and disagree with me. I doubt anybody will have a solid argument that this book was not needed. I welcome all comments, positive and negative on this book. But if you are going to have a negative comment please read the book in its entirety first and justify your words.

Pharisees roam cloaked

Pharisees and Sadducees roam the earth once again. They cloak themselves with the cloth of Christ, yet they judge and condemn others like we were a plague. Even the older parishioners seem to judge and look down on others as if to say they are sinless.

However, aren’t we all sinners in the eyes of God, do we not all share in His mercy if we repent and have faith in Jesus? I know, and believe me; I do know that I am far from being a saint. However, Jesus knows my soul. Jesus knows my love for Him. He knows my soul to have a faith in Him that is uncompromising. He is embedded in my life. I do make mistakes at times; I will never pretend or put on the façade of being someone without doing wrong. But, isn’t that the reason why Jesus was sent to earth? Was He not sent to this planet to redeem our sins and wrong doings? And isn’t it our church leaders to give us that gentle nudge and guide us in the right direction when we do wrong?

At times, I feel like instead of that spiritual guidance that we need, our church officials and elders look down on us, push us aside, and judge us. It almost seems that their hearts have hardened through the years. And by no means am I saying all our leaders and elders are like this. Because I personally know many that are good and honestly do God’s work. Just a few are like that. But that select few is what sways our youth away from the church. It is that select few that tarnishes the reputation of our existence. Then again, I do not know their life story to why they seem or act this way. So with that being said, I will pray for them to loosen their work load of a hardened heart.

Our younger parents and youth need positive guidance, help, and role models. They need the love of God in their lives. They need the mentoring of wise elders of faith. Where are the men to do this? Where are the men of compassion, strength, and mercy? Instead of being hard and walking away from us sinners, show us love and guidance. Teach us the way!

However, I must say, my parish recently was blessed with a new full time priest. I believe he is genuine and will do our people justice. He reminds me of an old soul that I miss very much that was genuine, sincere, compassionate, and most of all helping others turn back to God. I would like anybody who reads this entry to pray for my parish’s new pastor to guide us proper and revive our parish to what it once was, people uniting in Christ and full of life.

Visions of Heaven

Vision of Heaven

I had a beautiful vision of Heaven. It was so peaceful. There were no homeless. Nobody starved or was naked. There were no intoxicating drugs or diseases. It seemed like it was another planet (“… thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven”) much like earth. Similar to earth before pollution, developments, or nuclear waste.

Heaven’s landscape was perfect. Imagine the continents of Africa, Asia, and North America before industrial pollutants and developing. The pure jungles, deserts, mountains, forests, open pastures, gardens, and beaches in their natural beauty.

The animals, sea creatures, and birds all lived in harmony. And much like earth God seeded Heaven in His own image once again. As Adam was to earth, Jesus is to Heaven, except that Jesus was not from dust. Jesus ascended to Heaven from earth as the Holy Bible describes to prepare it for God’s children.

After Jesus arrived to Heaven and finished His preparation, God put Him to sleep and took His rib just like Adam and made Jesus a suitable partner. This is the bride that Jesus loved, honored, and respected. Jesus is sinless and unlike Eve and her being tricked by the devil, Jesus’ bride did not have that temptation to fall prey to by Satan. Jesus rules Heaven (“Christ is now in Heaven, where he sits at the right side of God. All angels, authorities, and powers are under His control.” 1 Peter 3:22) with peace, justice, and love.

How everyone on earth is born unto sin, except for Jesus, Heaven is seeded with perfection and all of God’s glory. All of Jesus’ descendants are sinless as well in Heaven. Nobody is jealous of another. There is no crime, stealing, or murder. There are no lies. There is no pain and suffering. We get along with everyone. We share with everyone. We are patient, loving, and kind. We are happy. Trials and tribulations do not exist. Everyone worships God and thanks Him for Jesus our King of Kings and our new home in Heaven.

Glory to God in the highest and peace to His people on earth.

Let us all share in this vision and strive for this destination together.

D. Thomas
11/06

Where is my somebody?

Where is my somebody?

Denzel Washington just put out a book entitled “A Hand to Guide Me.” The book tells how every great and/or successful man, whether he be a politician, musician, or just an average Joe receiving an employee of the month award, had a positive influence in his life. I sat at Borders and read the first sixteen pages of the book and had to buy it. I couldn’t help to think “wow” it’s so true. There are days I prayed that I had that "somebody" in my life to give me that “gentle nudge” to put me back on track.

Lord, you know I’m grateful that
you were always in my life
But you know it would have been nice to have
a hug that was tangible
A kind word from somebody older, wiser
Somebody to understand me
Somebody to care about me enough to
give me some guidance in life
All I had was your Word and Son
Which I couldn’t thank you enough for, but
It just would have been nice Lord…
It just would have been nice...

Anybody can be successful by any measure. With or without fathers. With or without mentors. Just the ones “without” will have to work a little harder, have to put in a little more effort, and have a little more courage.

To all out there “without.” Keep your eye on the prize. Stay focused. You will succeed in life even if you have to do it by yourself and you will be a better person for it. Never give up!

D. Thomas
December 2006

Lord is my mentor

Lord, you blessed me
With instincts so wise and just
I thank you for your mercy
You have my trust
If not for you, lone I be
On this earth
Without sight to see
You know I’m grateful
Throughout bad times and good
It was all the above, I understood
That you never left my side
& helped me through
My trials and tribulations
Lord, I love you
I thank you for everything
Myself, my love, and my seeds
Who walk this earth faithfully
Guide them with love
As you guided me
So that your legacy of goodness
Will eternally be
Sowed on your lands
Of the human race
I patiently look forward
To meeting you
Face to face

D. Thomas
11/2006

Hopeless and Alone

Jesus, you are my guide
I have questions that need answers
I feel that you left my side
Where are you
I lost you
Come to my rescue
I’m sinking in this ocean of corruption
I stand firm
I do not compromise my ship
The more I fight the winds
The deeper into the abyss I sail
Sharks surround me
Waiting for me to drown
I don’t want to sink, I refuse
But there is a leak
Lord, take me to safety
I don’t know how much longer I can hold
Before they attack again
I feel them tipping my ship
I’m really not scared, just confused
Tell me Lord, what direction to sail
I want to see land again

D. Thomas
Nov. 2006

Prayer for suffering

O Lord, help me through my suffering. I feel so helpless surrounded by chaos. Strengthen my soul and send your Spirit to me. Guide me, for I shall fall without you, though, I will triumph with you.

O Heavenly Father, I need you in my life. If suffering is what you bid me, than suffer I shall endure with honor. O Graceful One, thank you for Jesus, for He alone is my salvation upon this realm of earth. Glory to you Jesus for I shall gladly suffer for your will.

D. Thomas
1/4/98

Character Assassin

Character Assassin

He walks through the night
With his sword in flight
He is the character assassin
No heart
No shame
Has no game
Just likes to mame
The integrity of and take shots at your name
Sly and cunning
Are his ways
Turn your back
And he will slice your face
He is the character assassin
Feeds on your kindness
To strengthen his weakness
Knows nothing of meekness
He is just a mole
Trapped in a hole
Without a soul
Imprisoned
The devil has got hold
Of his life and he knows
His mouth is bold
So watch yourself
Stay true and fasten
For this coward is
The Character Assassin

D. Thomas
2003

Trapped Soul

Calendar full of tears
Life passes by year after year
Only to miss out on the true purpose why we’re here
The love of your family disappears
You make it worse than all your fears
Scared to live life for you own cares
Not willing to take back your soul
Missing you is your own
Go with them, they love your mold
Unconditionally without judging you when you fold
Or when you yell at them or scold
Their entire being for being your own
Don’t make the mistakes, for you’re told
Of the ones who fell to sin and now is old
Unwilling to repent because they're cold
Hearts are one with yours is bold
Only to lose the life you seek
Which is in front of you
And at its peak
Grasp the hold
Let love be your debt
Not the hole
Which you dig
For you are told
In advance so that you may have the chance
To live, love, be happy, and regain your stance!

Dedicated to a loved soul that lost touch, please, regain life. For we are not promised tomorrow. I love you!

D. Thomas
11/05/06

Confined

Night turns to day
Day turns to night
Month after month
Seasons change
But I don't get to feel the rain
Winter turns to summer
What does it all mean
More outside rec-
reation
Just another hallucination
Away from the realization
Of being an animal caged in a zoo
untame, blue
This is all true
Confined

D. Thomas
1997

Soldier's march

I refuse to fall short of the prize
I will reign with Thee, no man nor beast
Will break my spirit

Faith keeps me grounded!

How does a man succeed in life with no guidance?
Nor opportunity, no love or encouragement?

Faith keeps me grounded!

For every time I’m beaten down
the Holy Spirit picks me right back up
Some say loser! I say winner!
I refuse to lose

Faith keeps me grounded!

I stand as a soldier for God
I put on my helmet of salvation
I strap on my girdle of truth
I tie my shoes of peace
I wear my breastplate of righteousness
I hold tight to my shield of faith
& I speak with the sword of the spirit

Faith keeps me grounded!

When He comes like a thief in the night
I will be alert, wide awake, & ready
To fight the good fight

Jesus strengthens me with ultimate might
Courage to fight
Faith for sight
Jesus guides me with His everlasting light
The mentality of a knight
Spirit of right
And God holds me tight

Faith keeps me grounded!



D. Thomas
Oct 2006

Silence

So close, but so far away
Voices in the wind
Separate us
We are one
My stubborn ways
Her lack of sight
Divide us
Visions of romance
Keeps us tight
Her breath against mine
My body against hers
Our passion is might
I betray my soul
She plays the role
Goodnight

D. Thomas
2005

scripture on Love

Love

Love is kind and patient,
never jealous, boastful,
proud, or rude.
Love isn't selfesh
or quick tempered.
It doesn't keep a record
of wrongs that others do.
Love rejoices in the truth,
but not in evil.
Love is always supportive,
loyal, hopeful,
and trusting.
Love never fails!

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

That passage is from the Holy Bible. When I was asked what love meant to me, I couldn't have said it any better than that. I just sit back in amazement of how profound and true that passage is. Only a true man of God could be responsible for that scripture. Just marinate in that scripture for a while and let the goodness be absorbed.

My Crest

I walk through the shadows of brethren elite
Survive is the name of the game for the meek
They devils in disguise trying to delete
My name my fame forever to sleep (Humanity put to sleep)
Not in rest, but in great jest
I outcry to my Lord for relief of this stress
If the suffering you bid me is Your Will Lord
Then the stress that I digest
Will be consumed by my chest
Spit out through my vest of dignity, honor,
And that my friend
Begins my family crest

D. Thomas
2006

Footprints

Footprints

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. “Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you’d walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints; I don’t understand why when I needed you the most you would leave me.”


The Lord replied, “My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.”

"Author Unknown"

"Hive"

“Hive”

As I’m awaken from my dreams by unordinary beings
They hypnotize me with their eyes so that I can not scream
Unable to put up a fight
Elevated in flight
Through my window I go, only they and I know
We are in my backyard as they point to the stars
Hovering over us is an object of glow
The purpose they picked me was to better society;
as they communicate telepathically
“Only if you agree, you can go to the stars man has not yet seen”
As they trick me in my utmost vulnerability
I agree
We float through time & travel through space
I search desperately
For another soul of the human race

D. Thomas
1997

Hello people! Welcome to my blog. The title of this blog is "Footprints" There have been times in my life where I felt that hopeless and alone. It was at those times that I was given the strength and will to succeed even more through my faith in God and His grace! My first blog was titled "Blue Soul." I wrote that piece when I was twenty years old and in incarceration. At the age of 12 years old my mother was diagnosed with cancer and only given five years to live, max. I never had my father in my life. So it was only natural to be a misfit. (I mean, come on, how do you think a child will turn out with no father in his life and his mother on her death bed.) However, I always had faith in Jesus and God the Father. When other boys and girls my age had questions and/or needed advice they would turn to their fathers. Well, I didn't have that opportnity, so I guess that's why when I needed advice or help I always prayed to my God. That was the only father figure I have ever known. When I was fourteen I was so depressed, for my mother was so deathly ill, that I don't remember a day passing by where I didn't cry to my Lord for help and to heal my mother's body. I guess that is why I tried smoking weed. Right after that I realized I needed(or thought) money to live and supply my weed habit and started to sell the drug. One thing led to another and three years later I was arrested for selling drugs. Throughout that time, even at my lowest points, I always prayed to God and I never questioned my faith, for I knew He was always with me. I just chose to do wrong when I should have done right. I felt so hopeless and alone that I buried my pain with weed and sold drugs to pay for it. By no means am I making excuses. I was wrong and should have went to prison. After going through trial for two years, and had many chances to avoid prison by getting a job, I finally pleaded guilty and did my time. November 6, 1996 is a day in my life I pray that I will never forget. That is the day I started my sentence and rightfully so. That was my reality check that was most definetely needed. I thank God for that time in my life. The time I spent in prison was mostly consumed by push-ups and reading. I read the New Testement about fifteen times front to back, Mathew to Revelations, in a few different versions(N.I.V, The Contemporary, Free on the Inside, The New American). No Joke! I also read most of the Old Testement as well. I never finished The Old Testement but read most of that part of the Holy Bible. The New Testement and the teachings of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ was my hand book on how to be a man and Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth. During my time in prison I also wrote alot and had much time to think of my life and where I wanted to be present and future. Those writings will be posted as well as new ones periodically. So please check out my blogspot often. This is my soul spilled out on paper. I pray that my writings, prayers, and anything else for that matter on my page will somehow help out another. Feel free to e-mail me with comments and questions. Enjoy and may you go in peace!

Blue Soul

“Blue Soul”
As a youth laying in bed I always prayed
‘Lord have mercy,’ thinking,

why did you have to curse me?
Why me? Was it really necessary?
Not she!
The one that was always there for me, took care of me,
Truly loved me for me
Dammit! I would give my soul for thee
Take it away and give it to me
While rivers of sadness flows through my eyes
I didn’t realize that it was a blessing in disguise
That I could not see
He already planned out my “Destiny”
The crossroads He chose for me
Is it going to be Hell or Blessed Eternity?
All I can do is wait and see
In the mean time I’m stuck in correction of facilities
Praying, “Jesus, forgive me!”
By the way nurturing Begetter, I’m sorry
Never in your wildest dreams, not for one second
You thought that this would happen to me
After all the struggling, suffering, and fighting
that you did for me
Not to mention all the positive and good examples

that you set for me
I can’t believe that I let the ‘evils’ get the best of me
But when I get out, I’ll be the man I was meant to be
Damn! How much it hurt me to see you in agony
And how much it hurt to realize

that this test was meant for me
I’m sorry you went through the pain and not me
So when the Son of Man’s light shines from the sky
And He walks the Earth to bless His children
We will be blessed
100 billion fold more times than gold
Mom, Thank you for being my mom

I could never imagine anyone in your place

and wouldn’t have it any other way
You are the nucleus of my soul
That is why my heart shines like 100% Pure Gold
“Dedicated to the most precious Soul in the World”
Dennis Thomas
1/97